deux

Okay… Seriously? You’re doing it again. Call me impatient, but last time I checked its kind of courtesy to text someone back when you wake up or at least a couple hours after you do—especially after not responding at all the night before without reason. Its an entire next day today. And entire next day in which we are supposed to hang out today. Now don’t get me wrong, I understand you would not trade hanging out with me for anything else and vice versa, but when you do this I really just wonder why????? Its just not that hard to text someone back the next day. Its kind of unbelievable as to why you wouldn’t the next day… YOU of all people. Its just odd and it worries me sometimes to think you have second thoughts about everything. I just kind of feel ignored to be honest. I know you don’t ignore me but it just feels that way anyway whenever you do this. I just don’t understand why. I get nervous when this happens especially when we are supposed to hang out today because it gives me a slight false hope that I will see you. And no one is “too busy” to text someone back. Especially not when its you and me. The last time this happened, you told me there was nothing wrong and that you weren’t upset with me for any reason, but you had just left your phone to charge and not checked it all day. Coming from you that’s really weird and hard to believe. Its almost unnatural. I know your life doesn’t revolve around me, but i don’t know its still weird to me. I really hope you talk to me soon. Its driving me insane.

I Love You… John. I love you so much. You mean so much to me.

Recently, I have gotten the inspiration to start writing again. That’s definitely a good thing . KJ, that’s who has inspired me. Its something about his ability to tap into someone completely different than himself that just inspires me to be a better actor/writer. We have definitely clicked as very good friends and I am glad to have a friend like him. Feels as though in terms of friends, he was the one kind of friend that was missing. Of course I have got my amazing husband, but just in the FRIENDS category, I have pretty much gotten what I have been wanting and missing throughout the time I have lived here. And It’s a real shame that it had to happen so closely to me leaving for bootcamp though =/ But it’s all okay, he can always write me whenever he wants to and we can still keep in touch. We still have time to hang out once this whole act thing is all over. But I know we are both going to miss this experience dearly, for it is the reason we became such great friends. Blast, must continue this later… 2321 1101. 

Don’t do it. Unless you wanna get hurt.

Just… 

Fuck. 

fuck. 

FUCK.!

): Why me and why you? 

blogsecret:

I really want to admit our relationship, but for your sake, i STOP.

Ah, the joy of having company on a friday night. Tonight’s agenda involves friends, laughter, pool, and drinks galore. All topped off with a bittersweet farewell. Cheers!

Hard to get, easy to lose. Some people really don’t understand the significance of the way you communicate with people, and where it can get you. Respect—or the lack thereof—relates to my favorite quote; “Maturity does not come with age”. Watch it.